How EJ’S Mom Made It Happen

 5:55am on February 6th, 2019 I had my boy, EJ. 

All the pain I had gone through to get him here all paid off. First day was all about meeting each other and cleaning up the mess we had just made to get him here! He slept so much that I was worried and all I wanted to do was hold him and well feed him! I felt like I was a pro at it from the start the moment he latched on I was like yea I know what I’m doing! Haha! Then the second day; and again he latched on and I just assumed because he was latched on we were going to have the  smoothest breastfeeding journey ever and I couldn’t wait! BOY was I wrong! On the 3rd day we were home and we was hungrier than ever  & I was just soo tired. My adrenaline was coming down and life hit really me. By the 4th & 5th days the last thing I was looking forward to was feeding time because I knew it was about to be WAR on the boobs! I was afraid of my son 😂 I would take 2 very long deep breaths and say ok I’m going in... and died for those first 2 seconds. The rest of the time I had the ugliest face because of how much pain I was in. I knew I couldn’t continue like this and didn’t want to give up on feeding but I needed help! I used the nipple cream all day & all night to help heal them, it  definitely helped. 

I was so disappointed in myself that I hadn't done my research on breastfeeding while pregnant. I just assumed I would have it down packed. So I did beat myself up for it for awhile. So I started asking for advice & help. I wasn’t ashamed to cry and say wtf do i do! Here comes Priscila going through her own new mommy journey but never hesitated to answer my messages at 1pm or even 4am. She was my saving angel. I felt so safe. All I did was talk about her to my man. All the advice she was giving me I was passing on to my pregnant friends who were close to delivering. 

The first month was definitely overwhelming but we freaking DID IT! 

Then month the second and third month pass and I’m officially a pro at feeding. We feed EVERYWHERE & we are proud of it! I now struggle with his naptime. I had people tell me he isn’t napping as well as he should because he isn’t full enough. They'd say things like "you aren’t producing enough etc". I just broke down,I started to then feel like my son was starving all the time and maybe it was the cause of him not napping well. So I cried and cried and begged my man for us to just give him formula because i was just so scared and kept thinking about what those people were saying and that they were right. Then, I spoke to Priscila about it and she said that I was silly and gave me all the facts of that not being true because of EJ’s development. My man was the greatest supporter as well. He knew I wanted to just breastfeed and I was so afraid and paranoid. He said let’s pump and give him boob and bottle and if that doesn’t work then ok let’s do formula. So I pumped and I was producing ENOUGH! So we never ever had to introduce formula. That help me to gained my confidence back and we moved forward. We are almost at our 6th month of exclusively breastfeedinf and EJ has grown sooo much! He is so smart, so happy and so BIG! I am beyond proud of myself that I never gave up. I had a hiccup, but with the support of my man, family & friends I was able to continue doing it. 

No one ever spoke badly about formula to me. Everyone just knew and respected what I wanted to do for my son.

-EJ’s Mom

 "Thank you for helping me stay focused and for all the love you’ve given me! Because of you I am a proud, happy breast feeding momma ! 💙"